Being a mom has its ups and downs. The ups? Too many to name. The downs? Well, most of them involve bodily fluids and the functions that create them.
This week, like many, has had both.
Jeff has been taking a class this week for his doctorate program. This has meant that he leaves before we wake and gets home sometime just before dinner, depending on traffic. This is not our normal routine, and E knows it. She has been out of sorts all week, and yesterday was a doozey. By lunchtime we had SIX timeouts, and TV, Leapster, and music were all removed as privileges. Talk about the punishment hurting me more than her (you moms know what I am saying).
Definitely a day of downs.
Sometime right after her nap and before timeout number seven E gets this really serious look on her face and starts to cry.
I run to her, get down on her level.
“Sweetie, are you ok?”
In all seriousness she looks at me her tear filled eyes meeting mine, and says, “Mommy, please don’t give me away!”
I had to stifle my laugh. I could see her heart was breaking, but to me the thought was so absurd it was comical.
I held her close, let her cry on my shoulder and assured her that there was nothing, NOTHING, in this world that would ever make me give her away.
As funny as E’s comment was to me I confess we share the same fear. There are times when I am certain that my behavior is so atrocious there is no way that my Heavenly Father is going to keep me. I am afraid he is going to look at me and say “What was I thinking? I didn’t want that one!” That he is going to throw me back like a fish caught and regretted.
As a parent though, I know its comical.
I think He looks at me in those moments of doubt, smiles, and then lets His Holy Spirit wrap me up in the truth of His word. How do I know that He does this?
The Bible tells me so…
“For I am convinced, that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any power, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the Love of God that is in Christ Jesus.” Romans 8:39.
He loves us, oh, how He loves us. And, He will never give us away.