Let me clarify. Now, wanting a house is not sinful. It is not sinful to want a place to raise your children and provide a haven for your family. It is sinful to lust after a house; you know, pick up a home magazine, look through all the pictures and gaze adoringly, all in the name of “research”. Its a sin to covet what others have, and to be so blinded by jealousy that you cannot rejoice in the way the Lord has blessed others.
That is where I was with a house. It wasn’t a good place. I had to let it go.
I tried for a long time, and I recruited a team of friends to help me let go of this desire for a house.
Slowly my eyes opened to everything that I already had. We were more than provided for where we were. We didn’t have a lawn to cut. When something broke we called and someone ELSE fixed it, and paid for it. When we had ants, we called and someone else got an exterminator. We might not have owned a home yet, be we were able to own our time.
At that point in our lives, time was far more a luxury than a home would have been. I truly believe the Lord used the prayers of my friends and family to open my eyes to the blessings around me.
When I least expected it something wonderful happened. I found myself completely contented with my circumstances. Ok, I had my moments of house wanting, but they were few and far between! I knew that if we NEVER bought a house, I was going to be ok. I looked around me and was able to see the blessings I already had:
When it was cold, I was warm
When it was warm, I was cold
When it was wet, I was dry
Our needs we’re met. We didn’t have a house, but we had a wonderful HOME.
Suddenly I found myself in bed at night thanking the Lord for what we had, not begging Him for what I wanted. I was humbled and amazed that He would give us all that we had.
I truthfully got to a point where I thought “It really can’t get any better than this….
And then, it did.
More on that later….