About two years ago I really had it out with God. I remember getting into the car outside of our apartment. Inside said apartment was my 1 year old baby girl, and my loving husband who had graciously given me the night off to grab a cup of coffee.
We were right smack dab in the middle of Dave Ramsey’s Financial Peace, and we were significantly in debt because of the student loans I took to get my Masters Degree (in my life before being a wife and mommy). I had quit my teaching job to stay at home, and I had taken a part time job as an insurance salesman…
Yes, an insurance salesman…
I kept praying to God about things, but I wasn’t trusting Him. Truth be told I figured that if we were going to get ourselves anywhere we were going to have to dig down deep and do it ourselves.
My hubby had other ideas. He wanted us to wait. Patiently. On the Lord.
Patience is not my chose virtue.
I thought he had lost his mind. I had things in mind for our family. I had ideas of where I would be one day. They involved white picket fences, mini vans, and vacations, not coupons, apartments, and used cars. I was discouraged.
That night I didn’t go and get coffee. I went and I drove, which is how I think. I put on music, and I drive. I prayed and I prayed, and I listened as I heard Nichole Nordeman sing to me…
“Oh the differences that often are between, what we want, and what we really need.”
That night I laid a lot of things down at God’s feet. I let go of a lot of dreams, confident that what the Lord had for us was better than anything I could have conceived.
I was right, and tomorrow, I will tell you how….